The past, the love, the memory

You know, there's no regret for every big choice I should've choose. I run with my selftime and find soooo many love that I ever leave ahead. I'm apologize for that and I'll pay for sure. Now, I feel like "Me with my new soul". Feels like more alive than before. I'm not feel lonely again because of the LDR sucks. It didn't work. No, not again to feel that pain on the relationship. There's no different between LDR or being single. The only different is when you're single, you can find another guy to love, you are free. But, if you have a LDR, You can't.

The past isn't to be forgotten, The love is around you, the memory is album that you've to save.

And, em, don't you try to have a long distance relationship or you'll tortured because of love. :D

Great Companion

Oh, since I've broke up with the relationship. I find them and try to have a new start. I know past isn't to be forgotten. But enjoying every part of life makes me not remember about him anymore. Gratefull to have them.

Have no reason!

I wore : Black Mini Dress-gift from mom,
Leather belt-Elizabeth
Bag-Connectic
Vintage leather sandal-Mom's
Sunglasses-Local

I have no reason to keep in love with old style. When most of women try to fit their dress with modernity, trend, I don’t know why I still in my way. I remember 3 years ago when I went shopping, I bought a skinny sweater with HEATH brand, named HEATH VINTAGE. At that moment, I still an high school girl and didn't understand what VINTAGE means. I just in love with the design so I took it. Now, I’m 18 going to 19. A little bit know about that and try to learn more. I really have no reason to keep in love with old style, It’s amazing for me, interesting me..

The old today!

Thankyou sunshine, this is the best morning ever when you warmly touch my skin. With love, Dina.

It's 14 Already..

Happy Annyversary... Best wishes..

A concern

Hello dearies! How's your day? I start May with writing my lovely journal, the midnightsun. Ohh, life is so hard for me lately. I saw my boyfriend wasn't smilling again, his text sounds so down day by day, it seems so sad and give up. I try to ask him what the problem is, but nope.
Can you feel what I feel if your BF suddenly looks so weird, a concern, is it? Maybe he just bored of every duties in the office, or needs a different activity.
Or maybe because of the relationship, you know, long distance is hard, it didn't work.

All the bless and the bliss, Bar!

This is the only post on April

Life is never go back, sometimes it seems so real, sometimes just like a daydream. I try to never gone with the wind, walkin' slowly and run every project without any worry. I'm not a simply girl actually, I think first before do something, a little bit complicated but it's a joy for me.

Apparently this is my first post and the last post too in this month, altough April is my favourite month, never been a special day of annyversary, but time is never go back, how if april stay forever and I'm happy ever after?? hahaha, LOVE, Dina..

Maybe, yesterday was a fairytale

Beberapa hari kemudian, entah bagaimana aku akan menemukan diriku, seperti angan yang menarikkku ke dalam masa lalu yang kelihatannya hanya seutas rasa egoisme dan kesombongan, untuk menemukan kejujuran yang sulit terhapus oleh maaf. Bagaimana caranya menelan ludah sendiri dan memungut sampah yang terbuang. Oh, sang ratu adil, dimana timbangan itu ketika semua berat sebelah, kau tahu disudut sakit itu sepi menjadi momok yang menghancurkan warna cakrawala bumi, dan meteor meteor jatuh serta enggan menjadi sebuah permintaan dari harapan-harapan dalam khayalku. Seperti merindui air keruh untuk diteguk dalam keringnya kerongkongan yang siap mencabut nyawaku.
Aku mencoba mengalahkan suara hati yang berteriak memanggil namanya. Aku kembali ke bulan september dan menemukan aroma khas nya, mencari-cari dimana asalnya, namun telah dihirup oleh manusia baru nan indah untuk semua rasa cinta yang beruntung karena aku hidup tanpa semua itu. Sekarang aku mengerti rasa sakit karena disingkirkan dan ditikam dari belakang. Aku menikmati setiap keyakinan karena bukan aku yang mampu menjadi wanita yang bisa berbagi dengan sejumput rasa lelah itu.

Let's Play with Black!

Black is the most missunderstood color, I thought, because of mystery behind black color. Like my own questions about the future, mystery! "Will I be pretty?" "Will I find a good job?" or a little question like "Will I marry with someone I love?" I don't know. Cause the future not our's to see, no one know what will happen a second, a minute an hour, later.
Black also the symbolizes of sadness for some culture, but not for me these days. I got my value report better than midsemester, "3,54" I said. So, I have applied for a scholarship for me.
Black is one of the color of soil. In a positive state, black is seen as a restful emptiness into which anything may emerge and disappear once again. Ohh, dear, whatever what black meaning is, I love to play with black!

Black is not a color, strictly speaking~unknown

When Old Friend Meet Up

Howdy bloggers!!! Life is good, if we always feel blessed and be thankfull for all we have these days. Isn't it? I learn about that lately, cause of all the things that happen in my days. When I try to be a big girl when someone really disapoint me. Can't realize but I have to face the world. I think itsn't fair if I hurt my self to be uncommunicative and not happy.

There is a lot of time that I have to trough, many way that we have to face. So I think share my time with friends can make me more strong enough to forget all the complications in my life.

A few days ago I found them, my beloved old friend. About six month maybe I didn't see them yet. I'm longing the way we laughter together, share many stories, and huggies. I miiss them so much.

So we decided to go to karaoke, ohh, we sing many song, dance, just like same persons we used to be.

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.
Elbert Hubbard

A Bittersweet

It was more time spend my holiday in home. When the sun start to rising, I know my day was begin without some literatures and any tasks. Would be nice if I go to the outside, find another place that I’d never seen before. Oh, God.. thankyou for this peace life. Living in village in one of suburban, I love being there. Every morning I always hear birds sing to wake me up, everyday I see the sun shine day by day, live in tropic country that the sun always come full years. Become a girl that loves a nature sight maybe it’s ot really bad. A million fantasy grow with me then. This is about me, who need a fresh air sometimes to leave a few minutes my though about duty and crazy time in the city.

Belonging a good value is dreaming of everyone. As I want for my first in college. I pray and pray. I trust God, He’ll give me same as what I did before. When I do good thing, I’ll find someone give me as I do before. When I love someone a lot I know how a guy love me so much. And like I spend many time at night to do my tasks, exercise, practice and practice, how lovely when He relply all of my hardwork with His hand.

Pay your love!

Even the sun is getting tired to shining again, he never ask flower to pay its light. There I'm standing tall and longing for any fairy smiling at me. I'm too hungry. Too hungry of every love whisper. Am I wrong or just a lonelly feelings that sometimes come in teens life? I see a many dream where there I find of my childhood memory. There is full of peace and light. Together, happy in my mother's hug. No problem, no complicated, no trouble, just a sincerity. These day, since I had separate with my parents I realized that how adorable they are. Never ever ask me to pay their love back. Thankyou.


Anyway.. I try to not write about sadness or madness :) haha, I have to change the topic. Oh ya, about oldies anymore. Cause I'd never bored to find every old thing, like this glasses!


Sooo lovely I find my sister try to apply my glasses with her style. An old day skirt, her short shirt and some art books about acting. Actually she is a dancer and study about how to be a great actress too in every role of her dancing story. Her name's Antika. So antique with her style that day! This is the result..

Her books

As my laugh

I have told you that she is a dancer,right?

Her face sometime more similar with my mom, than me!


Awesome!

Vintage goodies

Can't take my eyes out from this cute baby shoes

I finnaly found a bag from an online shop in Yogyakarta, about a week ago. It's a vintage bag with three colour, brown, baby brown and white ivory in the middle. The bag is in good quality, so make me more satisfied cause there's a cute card from the owner.

It's a thanks for purchasing's card

I wore: polkadot vintage top-Dress up boutique, black jeans-Nevada, shoes-bucheri, vintage bag-online shop, brown ribbon-bunga

This is my first day I wore the bag in college, my friends look so envy. I could read that on their face. :)



Day by day gone so fast, we have to enjoy our life, right. And absolutely, my college will be the way to reach my dream. :)

Regimen is superior to medicine~Voltaire